Five.

It's like a bird singing in the trees
Something like the color changing of the leaves
It's a cool breeze on a hot summer day
Love, you see, jsut takes your breath away
It has this natural power to heal
No matter how rotten you may feel
It has the ability to touch us all
It picks us up when we fall
It tends to engulf you where you stand
Don't you agree that Love is grand?

One.

Scared and confused
To be silent
She refuses
Slowly she finds her voice
Faltering at first
Then she becomes resolute
And robust
Until finally she can't
She won't be silenced
Voicing her opinions
Unafraid of the consequences
For so long without a voice
To be heard is her choice

2004

Death, destruction, and despair
These three things hang in the air
Hope, love, and peace
We never saw these in 2003
Injustices, hunger, and war
These are the things to expect in 2004

Unforeseen

Wasted closet case
A trip it took to take me down
My sight I sought
A fight I fought
To break teh unbreakable
To forsake the forsakeable
A piece for peace
Try and take my heart
And reach into my soul
You may never know

The Real Me

I sat here today and cried
As I wondered about my life
I started with day one
To understand how I became
What I've become
No one bothered to take the opportunity
To get to know the real and true me
Everyon'e reaction was the same
They would point fingers
And call me names
Even after high school
I'm not what they would consider cool
Swamp thing, wilder beast, it, and more
I've even been called THE TOWN WHORE
So what exactly am I supposed to do
When no on really has a clue
The person I turned out to be
DOES ANYONE WANT TO KNOW THE REAL ME?

Standards

Listen to your elders, she would say
And a fine woman you will make one day
Cross your legs when you sit like that
Sit up straight!  Do you want a hump in your back?
When in public she would say
Mind your manners and behave
Your actions reflect on how you were raised
I have done all that I can do
Morals and values I've instilled in you
Years have gone by now and I wish she could see
What a wonderful woman, I turned out to be

My Cha'rae

The wind blew
And the earth shook
One look at you is all it took
My knees tremble
My heart pounds
I can barely stand
I almost hit the ground
And now you're here
There's no denial
O've been waiting for your arrival
Words escape me
As my mouth becomes dry
And I begin to cry
No words can express
The love I felt that day
When I finally met
My Cha'rae

To My Unborn Child

I am scared
I am petrified
In my hands
Your life lies
I want to give you all that I never had
Laughter and love
To grow up knowing your Dad
In you I see me
I don't want you to struggle and fight
I will teach you wrong from right
If you have a problem
To me you can come
Whether in the right
Or in the wrong
Because as your Mom
I am here to protect you
To keep you safe from harm
My life for you I will lay down
So that you, my unborn child, may always be around

Dear Father,

These words must be spoken
For myheart you have broken
I will never know
What kind of man you are
Your face you dared not show

What kind of man forgets his child
Instead of accepting responsibility
Chooses to run rampant and wild
What did I do to deserve this loss
To be treated like trash
And simply just tossed

I imagined the way you would walk
The things you would say
When we finally talked
But nothing comes to mind
That can ease the pain or rewind back time
Of you not being there
And the saddest this is
I wasn't even aware

This secret was kept away
But you must have known
There would come a day
When I'd start asking questions
About you
Your location
And what did I do

I wondered would I disrespect and rebel
Like a normal child would
Or would I fear and respect
As a daughter should
Would you ease my fears
And chase away my woes

Because of you I grew up without a father
But you didn't seem to mind
You have other daughters

I have come to learn
That in life
There are memories that burn
But I will never have to know
What kind of man you were
Because your face you never showed

Innocence Slaughtered

When she was small
She had her innocence slaughtered
He would creep nto her room
And slide his hand under her covers
He would say "SHHH don't move"
He would touch her where
They said no man should dare
He would hold her down
She would go to scream
He said "SHHHH"
So instead she whimpers and frowns
He threatends to kill not only her
But also her mother
If she says a word
So this burden she carres
This secret she shares; not even with the birds
Many nights she lies awake and cries
Wondering why
When she was small
Her innocence was slaughtered
She was robbed of her childhood
She was robbed of being a daughter
Instead she was treated like a toy
"Dear God" she cries, why wasn't I a boy
Tossed around and used
Mistreated, hurt, and abused
No one to come to her rescue
Instead she had to do the
RES---Q---ING
Her little sisters from this monster
Hoping and praying that when
They are older
They won't have to lie awake at night
And think about
Being small
And having their innocence slaughtered.

I WRITE

I write

I write
To express myself
To free myself
To be myself
I write

I write
To alarm myself
To calm myself
So I don't cause harm to myself
I write

I write
To let you in
To let them in
To let me in
I write

I write
Because when I do
I win
I write

I write
Because when I write
I show you who I am
And where I've been
Where I'm going
And when
I write

I write
Quite simply
Because I can
I write

Poetry

I can sit here and say that words are my way of expressing myself but the realization is that we all use words to express ourself.  Some do it in song, some in rap.  Others can only express themselves once they get angry.  And then there are those who don't know how to truly verbalize what they feel so they write................

My form of communication is writing whether it be a poem or a random thought.  Or a carefully thought out arguement.  The best way to let you in are by my poems.............So withouth further adeiu.............my mind................................................................................

Random Thoughts

So as an Aquarius I have learned that we tend to keep things inside of us instead of letting our feelings out.  I have also learned about myself that if I don't find a way to get my thoughts out I will go crazy.

So I have a REALLY good friend who shared his blog with me  Thereisonlyperception.blogspot.com and I have decided that I am going to try my hand at blogging.

So to everyone out there who is reading enjoy taking a peek into the mind that belongs to me.