Running?????

Eventually it's going to catch up with you.

Isn't that the truth.  I tell you it seems that no matter how far I attempt to run away from what God has called me to do the closer I seem to get to it.  Seems a little backwards huh?  You would think that I might get far from it...be able to "escape"..  Wrong answer.

I was at work today and I was presented the opportunity to witness to someone who seemed to be lost.  A young lady just lost her mother and seemed ready to run away from life.  It was as if I opened my mouth and out came God's Word.  Not only does this young lady wish to continue further contact with me but her co-worker asked if I would be willing to talk to his girlfriend; as she is going through a difficult time in her life and he thought I might be able to help.  The entire time I had goose bumps/chills.............. I've always been told that when you know the Holy Spirit is moving through you.

Hindsight is 20/20!!!!  I know that I am here for a greater purpose.  Here's the kicker....I still don't know what that purpose is.  I know it has to do with leading people in His Name.  But I have no clue as to that calling is........... I pray for vision so that I may see what He has in store for me.

Fathers........................

Ok so a few weeks ago I was browsing through my facebook statuses and I came across this picture.  This picture was heart-warming.  It should have aroused emotions within me that would have made me all warm and fuzzy on the inside.  Instead of joy I felt anger. Not just any anger; this anger was fueled by rage............I was angry and had some things that I needed to get off of my chest.

At this point all of you are wondering what in the hell was this picture of....Ok so there was this Father with his daughter and he was showering her with hugs and kisses.  How adorable......no seriously it was......and everythng would have been ok until I read the caption.....Wait for it..........."Let's see how many likes we can get for this Dad for being a Dad............ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Inside of me rose this rage from deep inside, like deep down in the intestines...

This is not the first time that I have seen something of similar context.  I ask you since when are we promoting people for taking responisblity.  Why the hell should I give you props for doing what you are suppose to be doing any way?  Seriously, is this the pathetic society we are living in now?  (Rhetorical question) 

You as a man and woman lay down and make a child whether intentionally or not, you still made it.  So raise up and do what you are required to do.  These children did not ask to be brought into this life.  It is your job, your responisblity, your duty to make sure that child life is fulfilled to the best of your ability. 

Men so often get away with being able to not parent children.  These men are out here making babies with these women and walking away.  Gentlemen it is now time to grow up.  Man up, raise up, own up...

I don't want to take away from the men who are handling their own.....men please keep it.  You have so much to teach and show our children.  You are meant to be their and our protectors.  Continue to push through.

The ones we should be giving praise to are the step-fathers.......these men step into a position they are not REQUIRED to step into.  You receive my highest admiration possible to the human race.......Thank you for helping along the way.........

Five.

It's like a bird singing in the trees
Something like the color changing of the leaves
It's a cool breeze on a hot summer day
Love, you see, jsut takes your breath away
It has this natural power to heal
No matter how rotten you may feel
It has the ability to touch us all
It picks us up when we fall
It tends to engulf you where you stand
Don't you agree that Love is grand?

One.

Scared and confused
To be silent
She refuses
Slowly she finds her voice
Faltering at first
Then she becomes resolute
And robust
Until finally she can't
She won't be silenced
Voicing her opinions
Unafraid of the consequences
For so long without a voice
To be heard is her choice

2004

Death, destruction, and despair
These three things hang in the air
Hope, love, and peace
We never saw these in 2003
Injustices, hunger, and war
These are the things to expect in 2004

Unforeseen

Wasted closet case
A trip it took to take me down
My sight I sought
A fight I fought
To break teh unbreakable
To forsake the forsakeable
A piece for peace
Try and take my heart
And reach into my soul
You may never know

The Real Me

I sat here today and cried
As I wondered about my life
I started with day one
To understand how I became
What I've become
No one bothered to take the opportunity
To get to know the real and true me
Everyon'e reaction was the same
They would point fingers
And call me names
Even after high school
I'm not what they would consider cool
Swamp thing, wilder beast, it, and more
I've even been called THE TOWN WHORE
So what exactly am I supposed to do
When no on really has a clue
The person I turned out to be
DOES ANYONE WANT TO KNOW THE REAL ME?